| A Small Update |
[02 May 2007|02:10pm] |
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Well nothing really much has been going on here lately. I am still working at Pleezins as a waitress. Whitney nor Marlena is my friends still, which I am thankful! Nathan and I have became closer friends, but its sad because its so close to the end of the year. :(. I am going to miss him A LOT!! The most probably...because he is like the greatest friend I have.
Anyways love situation..well I am single still and I am flirting a lot more now and Bo hates it. But ya know what? I am free and I am happier!! Though I know I cant kiss the guy I have been wanting to in for ever... I am still happy!!! I wanted to date him again but now I just want to make out like a wild animal in heat!! LOL...not really just kiss...simple...romantic...kiss ^__^!
But thats about it I suppose other than my sister has a new boy friend and she doesnt care about me or anything anymore. I miss her a lot but she just doesnt seem to want to come see me as much as she did when her and Josh broke up...It has made me very sad :'(!
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| Trying To have a better day... |
[06 Apr 2007|03:53pm] |
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some kind of arabic music from a video sum1 is watching |
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Right now its around 11:00am and I am at school in 3rd period. Marlena and Whitney did not show up to school today. So I am kinda in a better mood. But knowing my luck they will be there when we get back and once again I have to put up with being in hell. Last night I cried myself asleep. Bo was there trying to comfort me, but he had to go to bed. So when he did I just cried more. I dont know why I am being treated this way. Am I a bad friend? A bad person? Am I such a horrible person that people treat me this way? Why? Why am I being isolated by people I thought cared?
In the end everyone turns there back to me. They give up on me. They stop caring. They treat me like a no one. So...am I a bad person?..am I a bad friend...am I?
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| How life has been so far... |
[05 Apr 2007|02:57pm] |
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 and PISSED OFF! |
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The sounds of keyboards clicking... |
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Well...I am graduating here soon...I graduate May 25th...I am ecstaic and can not wait to leave...My friends here lately have been treating me like crap and I am tired of it...Now they are mad at me for actually comming out and saying
"HEY YOU HURT ME AND I AM ANGRY AT YOU FOR BEING A B**CH TO ME ALL THE TIME I AM TIRED OF YOU SAYING YOUR A FRIEND WHEN YOUR NOT"
I didnt say those words exactly but...Something close to them...I am so depressed that people I thought I could count on no matter what turns their backs on you and expects you not to be hurt or mad...you no what I dont need them...I dont need anyone but myself...
IN OTHER NEWS!!!
I have lost 14ilbs. The more depress I get the less I eat so thanks to my friends I am dropping weight like crazy.. THANK YOU! But yeah I have been exercising and eating right. I eat fatty foods every now and then but not as much as I use to. Your suppose to anyways. That way you dont get tired of your diet and get off of it. So there for..HAH! Now that I have lost 14ilbs in..like a month I guess...The weight will be comming off easier.
ALSO!!!
Lynn one of my friends at work likes wiccan...she used to be one too...she used to cast spellls and go to those conventions..I am very intrigued by this..I never thought she of all people would do that...SOUNDS FUN!!
WELP!!!!
My sister and her boyfriend has broke up....Maybe they will get back together...her exboyfriend Kenneth...RAPED HER!! AND I AM GOING TO RIP HIS THROAT OUT...I AM GOING TO MAKE A QUEER RAPE HIS BUTT AND SEE HOW HE FEELS...NO ONE FUCKS WITH MY SISTER!!!
sorry but that pisses me off...
ALSO!!!!
SCHOOL SUCKS!! AND SO DOES THE TEACHERS!! Especially over here at the tech. center...I wish they would lighten up...They should...they have been hard all year...its almost over and they need to take a chill pill...thank god I dont have to worry about them when I graduate...YAY!!
I can not wait till the day comes when I am gone and dont have to see these peoples FAT UGLY FACES! anymore :) I be very happy then HEHE!
THE END..for now ;)
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| been awhile..its 2am..woo.. |
[14 Mar 2007|02:17am] |
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Nothing much has really happened. Bo and I have broke up..but I really dont want no one to know..Mainly my parents..We will be back together befor its all over and done with...I am suppose to try out for this band...but it isnt going so well...I can never find the time nor can the dude named Josh so it sucks...it is spring break yay...Thursday is prom so I am going to be getting drunk WOOT!
HERE IS A SONG I AM WORKING ON..
all this pain and all this anger
i let it build up inside of me
when i finally let it escape
people look down upon me
they dont realize how much i have to take
even after i fall down and break
i am lost and misunderstood
by all those around me
this is all i am this is all i can be
i am all alone in this desolate world
walking alone in sorrow that is my own
where happiness will never be shown
all this anger
scars i cant hinder
i have to take
then i break
there is no escape
this sorrow is my own
happiness is not shown
no one understands me
cause this is all i can be
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| Monday...Periods Sucks...No Work...*sigh* |
[08 Jan 2007|04:01pm] |
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silence its a library...DUH! |
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Well I started my period not to long ago and well..I have nothing but toliet paper..so it feels really odd..ahem..yeah..I have no work today cause they are closed nor tomorrow..happy!! :) hehehe...So thats really good I get to spend more time with Bo :). But yeah lately things have been moving slow..but yet fast...this year has gone by fast..but the time spent with friends family and bo has been slow...like i never get to see any of them..Because I am always at work or school. So I have lost my friends pretty much...and I can tell Whitney is trying to compete with me..and I am so sick and tired of it..thats bull shit!...Jimmy..today at lunch..said that people need to stick with their firs commitment..which is true because they will be there more for you...but do they? no of course not...so yeah...that has had me down since summer of 2006. I know its a long time..and maybe I should give up...But I havent...and probably never will...We all have this big trip to Canda all planned out for our Senior Trip I doubt it will happen though. We was thinking about going by train..I havent found nothing about it just yet...OMG I can not wait to graduate high school....(sighs) I am about ready to .... BLOW UP!! lol..
Well thats about it!! I will post later on!!
....~♥~Mandy
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| ...pfft...*dies*...work work..and oh..more work! |
[29 Dec 2006|01:32am] |
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I didnt know having a job cuts into ones social life majorly. But its okay because the people I work with is basically friends..kinda. They all rock and they are soooo nice. Unless you piss them off anyways lol. Tomorrow I have to be in at 11am-2:30pm then leave and come back at 5pm-9:30pm. So yeah tomorrow .. is going to blow big time.
Other than that....I have no true friends I realized other than maybe...Alicia..and somewhat Margaret and kinda Lori. Other than that thats about it. Whitney and Marlena is always wanting to be stuck up each others ass like some kinda lezbian lovers or something. So yeah...And Marlena wanted to give me this load of bull about being my BFFL and all this. BULL SHIT. Best Friends hang out at least SOMETIMES...But do we? No of course not, because her and whitney is all that matters. Lord help why dont they just come out and say...We are lezbo lovers. Cause its already THAT obvious!!
Well I am hoping to get a car here soon. Dad said he was going to give me his car. Then Barry tells me about this really nice Corrolla(sp?) forsale for like $250. Also I am buying a awesome steroe system for a car thats like $30. IF my brother still has it. Which is doubtful.
But thats about all that has been happening. I can not wait to graduate and find new friends....well I want to keep Alicia as a friend cause she really hasnt HURT ME as bad as my other friends has. Though we have had a lot of arguements but what BFFL doesnt?
Well I suppose I am going to stop here and go to bed. Nightie Night.
....~♥~Mandy
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| Christmas ... and stuff |
[27 Dec 2006|03:27pm] |
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Well christmas was okay I suppose. I got Harvest Moon: A Wonderful Life Special EDITION for PS2! So I have been mostly playing that lately. But now I have to start back working today. We only had 2 days off, which sucked monkey butts. So yeah I have to go in at 5pm...*sighs*...I was hoping for a little longer off, but it'll be okay I suppose. I guess I am going to make some money, since Bo is off for like 2wks..so yeah. Welp I have written some more of my story!! It is going good.
hmm..Nothing much else has been happening. My BFFL is preggie. Which to me is just GREAT! I cant wait :). I got a $100 tip on X-mas ever which is also GREAT! And thats about all that has been happening. I am rearranging my room for the 100th time. I dont like for my room to stay the same lol. I change it everytime the season does. I suppose that is a little weird. But oh well.
My sister is having love problems which makes me feel bad. I wish she could just drop this guy and move on to another one. Because he is causing her a lot more pain than break ups ever would. So personally I think that she needs to get out there and date. And if she needs my help I will help. She thinks she isnt pretty enough but she is. She is perfect, she just has to be patient and wait for that guy that think she is the most perfect person in the world. Like I have. My sister is the best person in the world and deserves much better than this one guy. I think anyways.
Welp thats about it. Other than my friends suck! They dont even want to call me or anything. Maybe I should call them? But I suppose if they wanted to talk to me they would call me. I suppose they are too caught up in Marlenas new boy friend. Oh well! I dont care. I will never see them again when I graduate anyways. THANK GOD!!!
...~♥~Mandy
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